Day 4?

Well, here we are again. Yesterday after we spoke, I had a big day out. Ax had a doctor's appointment. My mom and the two of us went to meet up with Matt and fam hoping for a little lunch with them but it didn't work out. My original plan was to go to Souper Salad for some yummy ensalada but Jason's was closer and they have organics on their salad bar. I ate my fill of field greens and spinach along with some hard boiled eggs, sunflower seeds, cashews, walnuts, and cranberries. There were some totally delicious cherry tomatoes on the bar!! You know what though, I ate A LOT of salad but at the end of the meal I felt unsatisfied. I felt like I hadn't hit the spot on what I was hungry for. I think, maybe, I was craving the sweets and cheeses, maybe even salad dressing (ranch). I walked away though. Then later ate a chicken breast (organic) [from here on out (O) will denote organic] and 1.5 pears, some lucheon meat (i had to finish what we had already bought. I think i'll still keep some of this on hand for quick snacks.) and some sliced carrots. I know I have to increase my amount already because I've lost 3 pounds in 3 days, especially if I want to keep nursing Ax in the morning. Gosh, I've noticed when I get sleepy tired that it gets super hard to resist temptation. I've had to throw out all the candy in the house and hide other grains and starches. Dairy is the hardest by far. I LOVE dairy in any form! Today I had a chicken breast for breakfast, Half of an avocado, and an apricot (icky. it was mushy and icky). I'm cooking a 3lb porkloin in the slow cooker with the hopes of enough leftovers for a few days of easy meals. Today is my brother's birthday and we are going to Main Event for some family funtime, so I need to pack plenty of good snacks because we all know that Main Event doesn't stock a nice salad bar ;)
More on this empty feeling. I really feel like I'm empty all the time. Not necessarily hungry, just empty. Like something is missing. I wonder if this is what it's like to detox, but on a bigger scale. I find it hard to think about other things when I walk by something that I want to eat. :/ this is not a happy feeling. I think I remember something a little like this with the Zone but not nearly this intense. I hope it passes quickly. 
As weird as this may be, has anyone had weird BMs with this Paleo thing? smaller, darker, and way STINKIER? Just something I noticed. And I need to drink a lot more water.
I'm afraid at how expensive this new way of eating is going to be. I spent $115 at the grocery store on produce on Sunday and I'm not sure how long I can keep all this. I know there is going to be a learning curve with that, but I hope I don't waste all of this.
ok. Nap time. more later